Well camera, we had a good run:( (May 9th)


It´s hard to write about today. The anger and violation I feel is hard to contain, but I will just let it all flow out.
I had to leave my seaside hostel today and head for a hostel much more inland and much more expensive. Sure, I COULD have saved €1.30, but I opted instead to get their in fraction of the time and save my legs a long walk with a heavy pack.
I said goodbye to the last of my newly acquired friends and headed for the Metro. If only I would´ve just walked...
After I bought my ticket, I ran into a few other girls from the hostel. I chit-chatted with them until our train arrived. It was packed, but I plowed me and my big bag into the crowd and urged the girls to do as I did. They tried, but ultimately there just wasn´t enough room on the train and they waited for the next one. If only I would´ve done the same...
The train was full of passengers and I kept on getting pushed around with the swaying of the train. I had heard that Barcelona was a TERRIBLE place for pickpocketers, so I was paying particular attention to my huge bag strapped to my back.
I felt bad cause I kept on plowing into this one guy and I tried to apologize to him. But when I made eye contact he gave me this weird look, but I couldn´t comprehend what he was trying to say. He then whispered something in my ear...but it was in Spanish and I had no idea what he was saying.
But there was something about the look he gave me. It was if he was trying to tell me, ¨Someone just stole something from you."
I was worried, but I had been watching my bag and I was pretty sure no one could´ve stolen anything of value from it...
What I didn´t realize, was that in all the tossing and turning on the train had distracted me and I didn´t notice that the pocket that contained my camera was now empty.
I thrust my hand into my leftside pocket, expecting to feel the shape of the camera I had used continuously on my trip...but it was EMPTY! I felt around my other pocket, but there was no camera.
Suddenly realizing that I had just been robbed, I turned to one of the passengers who had been next to me the entire time and brilliantly asked, "Did you steal my camera?"
Wow! Smartest move ever. Oh course he would just come right out and say, "Oh HO...yep, sure did...sorry about that. Here´s your camera back"
So dumb, but I just wasn´t thinking clearly at all as I felt like I had just been personally violated.
I´ll never forget that feeling of complete and utter helplessness as I got off the metro at my stop and watched the remaining passengers slowly passing by as the train moved along to it´s next stop. I almost expected the victorious thief to reveal my stolen camera and snap a picture of my dejected appearance as he safely escaped the scene of the crime. SUCH a terrible feeling.
I spent the rest of the day trying to cope with this injustice. I even had the receptionist at my new hostel call my previous one to see if I had absentmindedly left my camera there.
I held out hope, but I knew it was all just wishful thinking. I would never see my camera again.
I refrained from spending the rest of my day facedown in my own pillow, screaming, "Why...WHY!!!", as tears streamed down my face.
Instead I just chilled at my new hostel, which turns out was well worth the extra cast I spent on it.
It basically felt like an apartment, albeit one that you had to share with several other people. There were three other people in my room, but it was much less then 7 to 32 person rooms that I was used to staying in.
There was a living room and kitchen, which I expertly cooked ravioli in for dinner.
I decided to spend the night simply reading my book, Angels and Demons, which I had already read but found renewed interest in having visited Rome three weeks ago. I have to admit, I can definitely see why people think Dan Brown is crap as a writer, but it´s still an entertaining story in my opinion. George Lucas is a FANTASTIC storyteller, but writes some of the worst diaglogue EVER for his movies..."Good call, Anakin!"
So I have lost my camera, which will make posting pictures with my blog increasingly difficult. I need to figure this camera thing out before I get to Scotland, but for now, I´ve included some pictures of myself from the other day.

































